Life is a free fall and growing up is a strange process. The brutal truth is as you age your mortality becomes more apparent to you. As a kid you rarely think twice about doing things. You are so brave and trusting. There is both euphoria and anguish in life and the beautiful thing about growing up is that you hopefully learn to appreciate both.
For most of my teen years I felt alone. I was bullied frequently and I struggled with my schooling a great deal. My one tangible element of hope, was my dream to live in a big city and pursue a career in fashion. About 2 years after I graduated High School I made the choice to move across the country on my own to the East Coast. To say I love living here is a massive understatement. This place is a jumble of creative, interesting, and intelligent people. I even have the pleasure of calling some of them my friends. Which is a something I haven’t honestly claimed since I was a child. I am finally free to feel joy and be completely myself all the time.
My life journey doesn't end here obviously, I still have miles to go. I am slowly discovering myself and learning how to be accepting of my flaws. This is what your twenties are for, growth in all forms. Is my life perfect all the time? Absolutely not. Do I often get terrified about my future and where my life is going? ALL THE TIME. Life is messy and as you grow up you begin to enjoy the mess. Here’s to turning twenty one this weekend and fully realizing how wonderful this mad life of ours is.
Day by day, minute by minute I am becoming more courageous and more kind toward myself and toward others. Looking back on my life I hope to remember feeling happy more times than I felt distressed. Every person’s life path is different, and everyone struggles with the same fears no matter what they are experiencing. Fear of the unknown is a human struggle. It’s not until you begin to mature and step outside of your own bubble that you have the full perspective of this.
“Wonderful, glorious things are in store for you, if only you will believe, obey and endure.” - Thomas S. Monson, Current President of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints
For most of my teen years I felt alone. I was bullied frequently and I struggled with my schooling a great deal. My one tangible element of hope, was my dream to live in a big city and pursue a career in fashion. About 2 years after I graduated High School I made the choice to move across the country on my own to the East Coast. To say I love living here is a massive understatement. This place is a jumble of creative, interesting, and intelligent people. I even have the pleasure of calling some of them my friends. Which is a something I haven’t honestly claimed since I was a child. I am finally free to feel joy and be completely myself all the time.
My life journey doesn't end here obviously, I still have miles to go. I am slowly discovering myself and learning how to be accepting of my flaws. This is what your twenties are for, growth in all forms. Is my life perfect all the time? Absolutely not. Do I often get terrified about my future and where my life is going? ALL THE TIME. Life is messy and as you grow up you begin to enjoy the mess. Here’s to turning twenty one this weekend and fully realizing how wonderful this mad life of ours is.
Day by day, minute by minute I am becoming more courageous and more kind toward myself and toward others. Looking back on my life I hope to remember feeling happy more times than I felt distressed. Every person’s life path is different, and everyone struggles with the same fears no matter what they are experiencing. Fear of the unknown is a human struggle. It’s not until you begin to mature and step outside of your own bubble that you have the full perspective of this.
“Wonderful, glorious things are in store for you, if only you will believe, obey and endure.” - Thomas S. Monson, Current President of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints